Long drives down to the beach It’s not the Atlantic but the ones we keep discreet Long walks and long talks with the sand beneath our feet Untouchable in the summer heat Tree lines separate the air and sea Chain smoking by the CRV Sun bleached sand is grinding in our teeth Spending summer wishing winter won’t repeat Driving home I let you fall asleep Whipping hair and open air on our cheeks We’ve got no sense of time and we’re worn out Yeah, we’re worn out Salt air taking over me I’m sun burnt and falling back asleep Sleep sound when your next to me I’ll turn the shades and fall back into the sheets Sleep tight, don’t worry if you think I might take flight in the middle of the night Rest assured that when you wake in the morning light we’ll be alright Tree lines separate the air and sea Chain smoking by the CRV Sun bleached sand is grinding in our teeth Spending summer wishing winter won’t repeat Driving home I let you fall asleep Whipping hair and open air on our cheeks We’ve got no sense of time and we’re worn out Yeah, we’re worn out

We’re just banking on better days The only move I have left to play And I keep thinking of the bridges I’ve burned and the ties that I’ve frayed It’s the fever that drenched me in sweat in the first place Reactions to the meds that they swore were the worst-case scenario All the voices in my head are all in stereo 30 minutes and 30 milligrams later I’m fine They hooked me up to machines And made me focus on the ones and threes Test after test they keep treating my youth like it’s a disease It’s got me feeling some kind of way I think I’m dying a little inside each day And all those conditions you keep naming Don’t make me feel ok It’s the fever that drenched me in sweat in the first place Reactions to the meds that they swore were the worst-case scenario All the voices in my head are all in stereo 30 minutes and 30 milligrams later I’m fine

The day that we lowered you down 6 feet Right after you were laid out for everyone to see You spent your last years fighting life expectancy And the monarchs all let us know everywhere that you want to be And we’re laying the flowers out We’re shining the stone We’ll bury the wreathe You’re living in your time capsule town house It’s missing your best friend, it’s missing your spouse The scent of when no one had grown up yet and no one would leave you again Spending our summers on that floral lined couch We’d stick to the vinyl when we would lay our heads down And the sweet smell of camphor that would drive us straight out with our hands on our mouths Time capsule town house It’s missing your best friend, it’s missing your spouse The scent of when no one had grown up yet and no one would leave you again She says goodnight; seems a lot like goodbye Watching stars and fireflies, wondering how time goes racing by Her eyes close as she lets one sigh go The song on the radio just might be the one to sing her to sleep Time capsule town house It’s missing your best friend and it’s missing your spouse The scent of when no one had grown up yet and no one would leave you again She whispers goodnight I think this time is goodbye I’m losing sight in both my eyes wondering if time still passes by Her eyes close as she lets one sigh go We turn off the radio Silence is the song that sings her to sleep

I’m drifting in and out of sleep it’s early afternoon My head is hazy I’ve been drinking for a day or two I fill myself with things I know will make me feel like shit I’m losing time and to be honest I’m just sick of it I’m doing a bad job of acting Like everything in my life is ok My head is slowly compacting Just give it time i’ll be fine No sign of peace or relaxing Just give it time it will pass by This pressing feeling that I’m failing lives inside my head It pushes down and makes me sick and it starts to spread I’m crushing medicine I used to keep beside my bed This kind of feel-good is the feel-good that’ll leave you dead I’m writing letters to my friends like I am gonna leave A cigarette is burning as I’m falling back to sleep I’m doing a bad job of acting Like everything in my life is ok My head is slowly compacting Just give it time i’ll be fine No sign of peace or relaxing Just give it time it will pass by Said you need a little space Well for goodness sake, just give me a time and place Wishing we could escape And find a better way to waste our days away Are we just falling in love Did push come to shove Now we’re wishing for cleaner days, going our separate ways

One step before the other is how I’m living these days But I’m losing my footing My knees are giving way And I've climbed up to far to look down from this place I pull myself together then it all goes away I’ll spend all my days just laying alone I won’t pick up the phone A faded memory Of floating cross the sea Setting sail in hope to soon be free Thinking on what’s left for you and me I’m jumping ship and I’m swimming to shore I’m content with wanting less But I am thirsty for more Now I’m reaching for a life that they told me to ignore I’m stripped to my bones And I’m cold to the core I’ll spend all my days Just laying alone I wont pick up the phone A faded memory Of floating cross the sea Setting sail in hope to soon be free Thinking on what’s left for you and me I’ll spend all my days Just laying alone I’m sending smoke signals Cause you won’t answer the phone And I’m sick of leaving messages Sick of the tone I’m reading old letters that were sent from home

I’ll try to find an easy way to say I’m a product of a big mistake Nine months later I was on my way to a different home in a different state To a different mother with a different name And a father who would love me the same Seven years later I would hear them say “we’ll be back in a week she’s on the way” Was it too late did you tell the truth? Does it keep you up or eat away at you? Do you ever wonder if I grew into a man that looks like him or looks like you? Turned out fine and I’m happy too With a family that’s tried and true I was raised to accept and I think I do But every now and then I feel it too Curiosity is commonplace Will I ever get to see your face Blood related raised separately But if we crossed paths would it make waves I've pictured you a thousand ways I just wanna know if you left the states All the consequences being weighed It could end a thousand ways Raised to accept and I think I do And I respect what you’re going through Our past is just a sketch of what we do And our future’s made of lines and colors we let bleed through Was it too late did you tell the truth Does it keep you up or eat away at you Do you ever wonder if I grew into a man that looks like him or looks like you Turned out fine and I’m happy too With a family that’s tried and true I was raised to accept and I think I do But every now and then I feel it too

I’ll take a seat and count back from three I wanna see the world how the world sees me Convoluted thoughts that you seem to wrap up and tie so neat Give me an hour, watch my valor come un-sheathed I’ll hang my head and i’ll feel defeat I wanna lay it all out like all the lines laid in the street 40 miles an hour watching power lines retreat I can feel my bones are growing old I don’t want to wake up one day alone and cold We will pack our bags and go where we are told We’re counting miles, counting cars down county roads We’re counting days, counting states, and counting shows I’ll take some time and I’ll work on me Take a look around and just try to breathe Stretch out my arms and grab something solid in my reach The loss of power leaves a sour taste in me I can feel my bones are growing old I don’t want to wake up one day alone and cold We will pack our bags and go where we are told We’re counting miles, counting cars down county roads We’re counting days, counting states, and counting shows dJust say the words like you mean ‘em Shut the lights we don’t need ‘em Just take your time When you're leaving I’ll be gone You’ll be seeming like your fine But I see through all the pain that we caused you And I feel fine cause I need to I never tried to deceive you Just say your prayers in the night time Spill our hearts in the lime light Just take a breath it’ll be fine We’re counting days and we’re keeping time